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Currently Listening From Under the Cork Tree By Fall Out Boy see related

o.o'

Wow.. I haven't looked at this place in like.. FOREVER! Therefore i thought it would be nice of me to put a new entry.. I'm up to nothing much in recent times...

Finally out of school.. For good.. And i have a high school deploma and all that! Go me!  I still have no plan for the future, no job, no skills, no way of making money, and absolutely no hope for ever thinking i look good again!

I got my ears pierced ( both earlobes and the upper cartlage of my left ear) and i'm kinda in relationship hell.  Women = bitches most of the time..

Last week i went off on Sondra.. Lots of fun there.. We're cool though.  Thank god i didn't lose my best friend in that descussion.. That would have sucked >.>

So, there was kinda something between me and Virgin (Kay) but things happened... Namely her moving/ deciding she didn't like me anymore/ hating the distance things.. yeah.. I haven't talked to Erin or Leah in FOREVER.. But OMGWTF i'm going to call Erin now that she was nice enough to put it ALL OVER THE FUCKIN INTERNET... i think i'll just write that down and delete her post..>.> I don't want people stalking my friend..e.e

Ummmmmmmm.... I want a new piercing... And a job.. And a car.. And a fuckin coke!

GOD DAMN i'm starving!!!  So yeah.. I'm out for now.. I shall update this more often in the future, btw.

~Mac

Currently Playing Crossfade By Crossfade see related

- Colors

ROAR! You people lie too much about how i look. :p

Um, anyways.  Life's all still Blah.  I have no idea what to do with myself.  If i failed chemestry (which seems to be more and more scary as the days go on.. cuz i have no idea what i failed yet) i have no choice but to get my GED. Now, i have no problem with getting my GED if i don't have to go back to high school.. But i have no idea what getting my GED entails.  Do i just take one damned test and BAM! I'm fuckin out? Or what..?  If its one test, they're insulting me.. I have yet to get a single standerdized test i did not make a damned good score on.

Umm. I've been giving this house thing some thought and what do you guys think of the house being in Pennsilvania?  Yeah, its because of Megan, but its not what everyone thinks..e.e  Me and her are just friends.

Yeah, i'd give my left testical to be with her.. (and both to be a girl!!! :D ) But letting go is what i did.  And letting go is what i'm sticking to.  So, by the house being there, i have people that are already looking out for me.  Not to mention people who can give decorating advice.

Hmmm.. I want pizza.  Pizza pizza pizza.  Someone should kidnap me and bring me to a pizza place.  Then bring me back or something.. Cuz.. yeah.. You don't want a couch bumb.. Trust me.  they eat your food.

Well, i'm out.. Nothing else to talk about.

~Mac

PS>  I've done something else to further show i'm computer stupid.

This is a pic from the prom i went to with Thora and Candy.  Thora's the one on the left side of the screen, Candy's on the right.  I'm the skinny ugly freak in the middle.

Currently Playing The Silence in Black and White By Hawthorne Heights see related

- Ohio Is For Lovers

Bah.

This weekend reminded me quite a bit about how i hate my fucking life..e.e

I think i'm going to give up on fucking love and relationships and all that mess.  Things never turn out with me happy in the end.  Happy endings don't exist, i've come to notice.

Most of the bad stuff happened Saturday.  I accidently locked myself out of Sondra and Sarah's house while waiting on Thora to come pick me up.  Needless to say, i was out there for 4 fucking hours with animals that really don't like me and rain...

Then the relationship that me and my best friends were sure would go well (oddly, first person Sondra and Sarah have EVER approved of) came tumbling down. Honestly, i wasn't surprised when it happened and i actually saw it coming Saturday.

Still ended up hurt.. Tried to keep my emotions and shit out of the way, to try and enjoy the rest of the weekend, but apparently all this did was get me seeming like i was an asshole (which i honestly didn't see) and getting me in the middle of multiple arguments.

To top it all off, i was so fucking sick it wasn't remotely funny.  Friday my alergies started acting up, by saturday i was horse-ish and sounded like total shit, and yesterday  and Saturday night i had the worst fucking headache imaginable.

Eh. Life just feels like its totally falling apart.  And like usual i can't do shit about anything. 

"You always find a way to keep me right here waiting.. You always find the words to say.. To keep me right here waiting.. If you chose to walk away.. i'd still be right here waiting.. Searching for my mistake.. will keep me right here waiting"

I want to be somewhere new.  I want to find a place to go to a community college.. Somewhere out of state and away from the past.. Somewhere i can find my escape.. Fuck facing my problems anymore.. i just don't think i'm strong enough to face anything.

"I can't make it on my own... Because my heart is in Ohio... So cut my wrist and black my eyes.. So i can fall asleep tonight.. or die. Because you kill me... you know you do, you kill me well.  You  like it too and i can tell. You never stop until my final breath is gone.."

God i love that song.. God am i fucking Emo..e.e